Ugh. So hard. I saw similar things with my grandfather, but I was in my twenties and wrapped up in my own life. So there was some distance there between me and the situation that took the sting away. Plus, watching a parent suffer is so much worse.

I am so sorry your dad is going through this, and for the mix of emotions you feel as a result. The mind is so complex. Even if he can’t express it, I am sure there are places within his mind that still hold his memories and love for you.