I can sum up my experience with the life, that speed is like turtle, not a single achievement worth celebrating. So when you want to get better with the life, you have to think of making changes. Like you are not going to be ending up as a turtle.
For example, if life demands you to change, then you change based on what life can do for you. Some of the changes that you make would speed things up and make life a bit more better as well.
In my life, my mother is a big obstacle. Father even more so. but the thing is that they turned out to be a bully. And they didn't let me explore much. So that kind of slowed me down. And it become the habit. So that was something I wanted to change and I managed to did the same.
Some of the time we think of that as an excuse. No. In my case my people are really toxic and I am not proud of that nor I want to celebrate that as a fact. So in that case I want to know if that is something I can change over a period of time.
When in that context I wanted to change those things and realize that some of those things that were slowing me down are going to make some things really strong too. But that is kind of in past and it's something I want to get out of the way.
People slow you down. Time and the place slow you down. And then there are some of the things that you do which you slow down your own self. So in that case you have to understand what are some of those things that are slowing you down.
You have to make things much better for your life. So you can realize that life is going to get stuck and you have to avoid feeding the negative and the toxic people. So make sure to do those things and avoid making yourself go down. Let's hope things change in that context.
I suffered a lot in life. Thanks to my family. And the best part is that I can only blame my fate and myself because society is so much conditioned that me being a man, can't be a victim. And people on the other end are always the right one. So I feel that was a good punishment life that I got I hope I get the relief and maybe a better death if not good life.
You never know when death may listen and free me from suffering. We can only hope if good doesn't happen only bad happens.
