I dislike the spotlight a lot and if I do happen to get public recognition for something I have done, will downplay it, or say something to undermine it.

Surprisingly if you as a content creator continue with that approach it would make it harder for you to see growth. Most of the successful influencers, writers and content creators have to get rid of this mindset. Mind you I hate spotlight myself but I am changing and very clear on trying to get some spotlight on my content.