Have you ever had some pretty cool ideas in your head for stuff, but when you sit down to extract those ideas out of your brain and make your fingers put them into words or images, your brain just sits there like a lump of turds?
Well my brain has been doing that all week.
For those or you that are new to me and aren't familiar with my background, I have been through what some might say are some pretty traumatic experiences. This has left me with some mental scars that effect my day to day life, from memory issues, flashbacks, persistent migraines, to trying to just trying to find the will to exist in the world.
From an outsider looking in, I am sure everything appears fine and dandy, but it sucks to be locked inside your own mental prison. I was given a new medication some time last week, and I am pretty sure that is what has been causing this brain fog lately.
I don't sleep much as it is, and now this medication makes me feel even more tired. It doesn't help that my dogs are an early morning schedule and like to get up at around 430 to go to the bathroom and then at 630 to stay up. I tried to let them just run around in the living room while I was sleeping on the couch this morning but Harley, our lab, is always looking for food, so he was trying to get into everything.
While I was in the middle of writing, I thought about the first part of this post where I asked "have you ever...." and it reminded me of probably the best comedy show I have ever seen. It is called I Think You Should Leave and it is on Netflix. It reminded me of this skit here:
Ya, it is pretty dope, huh?
You didn't even watch it? Well that sucks...
I've been farting around with the Deep Dream Generator today trying to come up with some different pictures to use for a contest post, but I end up just deleting everything that I come up with. I guess it is one of those things that most creatives go through where we don't like our work and don't want people to see it, so we hide it away. As I am writing this, I am even debating on whether or not I am going to hit the submit button at the end. I probably will though because I haven't written a real post in a long time.
I've got another dream going right now, so I've got my toes crossed that it comes out. I can't cross my fingers because I am typing and I will end up just writing a bunch of gibberish if I tried typing with my fingers crossed.
Well, it actually turned out pretty cool. This photo was one of the zombie pictures I did for a friend that runs his own special effects company. It was a pretty cool shoot.
I guess I can end this post now since it has gone in some weird directions. I really didn't know where it was going to go when I sat down to start writing because I figured if I had a plan when I started, I would just get frustrated when my brain went all retarded and then I would have just given up, so for those that have stuck with this post, thanks for sticking it out and hopefully it made a bit of sense.
