I was shocked when I realized I’ve gone over a week without posting. I want to blame it on having a lot on my plate offline. But whiles I indeed was occupied, I think it had to do more with me relapsing back into inconsistency after going merely a day or two of not posting.
I know myself: I’m naturally not a very organized person. I can’t stick to timetables, schedules, nada. Both my creativity and desire to work or complete any task at all is fueled by spontaneity, which makes me unpredictable even to myself.
Knowing this, I also understand just how much taking a day’s break can throw me off my balance when I’m aiming for consistency, because that involves forcing myself to switch from spontaneous to discipline. That works most of the time - until I miss a day (even worse when there’s an s after day). It’s like an addict being sober for years until they relapse on their first drink after forever. Probably not a great analogy, but that was the closest thing that came to mind.
That being said, in the past 2-3 weeks there has consistently been things arising that prevents me from being able to write in a way or the other.
The first wave of distraction came from attending the hive tech conference. I got overwhelmed by the excitement of the trip and the mere change of environment (and understandably so, after being stuck in Tamale for such a long time) that I pushed writing 3 days forward. “Just 3 days: one day break because I’ll be tired from the journey for the journey, another to attend the event and relax, and the last to travel back”. Maybe this was just me finding excuses again. I don’t know
After those 3 days passed, just as I was about to get back to writing again, we got hit with the telecommunication downtime - the perfect excuse I needed to stall some more. Or maybe I wasn’t that bad.
In the 4-day span of the network downtime, I wrote 4 posts, one splinterlands, and 3 other general stuff. I was just getting back into my element. But somewhere 10 days ago, some things that required my unwavering attention came up, and I’ve been for the most part, concentrating on just that.
My huge inconsistency has affected my goal of at least 200HP ranking every month. So to teach myself a lesson and remind myself to stay disciplined, I’m punishing myself (in a good way) by buying from Binance, what I’m short on in HP because of my inconsistency. That’s somewhere around 33Hive ($14). Not much, but enough to teach me a lesson next time. Lol
And with that, I powered up 58 Hive, bringing my HP to 3.6k, which was the goal for March! Hopefully this post also rejuvenates my posting streak and I’ll be back to my regular shit asap:)
If you haven’t powered up yet, join us in this ritual and have a great #hpud!