A heartbreaking and life-changing experience in my life was when I was rejected from all overseas universities to which I applied for scholarship. Back in my days in Middle & high school, I was a top tier in my academics.
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I've always thought the educational system in my country doesn't fit me, and that I deserve a much better education. When I finally got an admission to study in a university here, It didn't take time for me to start hating the whole education system, and this alone made me to start applying to different colleges abroad.
Once I got into the allocation process and started to learn about the universities I was applying to, things got worse, and I wished never to step a foot ever again in my university here.
I was filled with negativity, always looking at what my university lacks as compared to the ones abroad. I was busy 24/7 stalking on education and life abroad. Basically (Like my friends always joke about), I was living 20% here and 80% abroad.......hahahahaha馃ぃ馃ぃ馃ぃ
As a result of this, my grades started dropping drastically and my life here became messed up. I never cared about any of that because I thought it would all be useless once I travel out.
When I was about to check my admission status I was so puffed up and overconfident that at least 1 or 2 colleges will accept me. But unfortunately for me, that never happened. You can't start imagining how I felt knowing that I was rejected by all the universities I applied for. It was really a tough moment for me that period.
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I was only fixated on the negativity I had on my life here, and I thought only this frustration will get me a scholarship without me sweating on the exceptional skills that I should demonstrate to deserve their generosity. I guess my thinking was wrong since it ended up not giving me my desired admission.
I learnt from this experience that I can't get a happy life by dishing my mind in a thought of no matter how miserable my life is, it will be awesome when I get this and that, and I will be so fulfilled and happy then because that's not how life works.
Complaining about what's missing is a job of a fool, since life should be about looking for what's missing in things and looking for opportunities in that.
Besides negativity will only bring you negative results.
I have learnt from all the things in my environment, and I have built up my self to a level where I bring out the best with everything around me. After all life is all about what you can do with what you already have, instead of what you would do with what you may or may not have in the future.
Thank goodness I managed to get back on track after learning my lessons. Fortunately for me, I was able to graduate with a good grade from one of the prestigious universities in my country.
Thanks for reading.
