I'll always love and appreciate the spirit of a child—so much confidence, big dreams, limitless possibilities in heart and a high level of aspirations that could seem unimaginable. Yes, that's a child for you. Was it because all that mattered was for the child to eat, play and dream dreams bigger than they? Unfortunately, when the child transitions into an adult, these aforementioned tender yet powerful characters tend to disappear. Is it reality catching up or he or she has learnt better? I guess there's more.
Journeying to this point in life, was one of courage and doubt, success and failures, gratitude and yes, lots of regrets too—a bitter sweet pill. Looking back to some years, perhaps even just a year back, it's one of growth I'll say. Being able to dream and aspire some things and see them unfolding in some ways is something great. I had such desires since a child. Some are still in view to be achieved, but I'm not letting go yet.
My current state or position in life is what I'll see partly as effects of some of my actions, decisions and choices while some came from background and upbringing. I've had it in mind to go in a particular line of career since a tender age. It's something I'm grateful that I could somehow achieve studying in that line, even though it had it's first class kind of stress. All that would make me question at times if it was meant to be. I felt it robbed me of some opportunities to do more with my life, coupled with its high demands also.
Was that a consequence of my choice? Yes, it is. I was privileged to not be forced to study what I didn't want to. I see now how it had helped shaped me into some of the things I do now and how I do them too. I didn't see myself become much of a creative person, but today, all I have passion for isn't always far from the creative world. Talk of graphics designing, video creation and editing, and then I find myself opening up to another version—a writer. It's something I didn't take highly and with much effort then, but thanks to Hive for reigniting it within me.
Being at this point in life, I guess if things had gone perfectly as dreamt of I should be some CEO now. It's something I would always say to my friends then. I still still it a possibility in it. The big things always start out small. No wildfire became a wildfire at once. Achieving that is a goal in view. The cost of achieving some of our dreams will entail us dropping somethings that might not be really necessary. And that l feel could be the reason we may fail to achieve some of our goals.
It's still a struggle, a back and efforts to reach that which I desire in life. Some being lifelong dreams since childhood, while others got cultivated along the way. But then, all are relevant to making meaningful impact in my world. And I'm glad to see how far I've come with some. It's not a destination reached yet, but I guess I'm not where I might use to be.
This is my entry for the SciFi Multiverse weekly prompt, week 10.
