I used to be scared of dogs my whole life until I was about 28 and we borrowed a dog from”borrow my doggy” in Uk. It’s a site for people like you (and more) You got to choose which dog you want to take out on walkies or stay at home and snuggle,
I went on it and my fears are completely reversed, we now have a dog and I love all dogs! Especially big ones!! :) they are gentle giants and have no personality issues haha like small ones