Remember how you felt excited when you saw that the moon 🌕 was following you? Remember how you used to sleep with all of your stuffed toys 🧸 just so that none of them were felt offended? Remember how you had one pen 🖊 with six different colors and tried to push all of the buttons at once? Remember when you would put your arms under your shirt 👕 and then tell everyone you didn't have any arms? Remember when you would pour your Coke into the cap 🥤 and pretend to take a shot? And how would you pretend that the droplets 💧 on the vehicle window were racing? Remember when we were just young kids who couldn't wait to grow up?
☆ At the Age of 10 : I want to be a Teacher
At the Age of 14 : I want to be a Nurse
At the Age of 18 : I want to be a Policewoman
Now : I only just want to be a kid again 🥹 ☆
Have you ever dreamed about being a kid again? Remember the carefree days of kids, when joy and imaginative ideas had no boundaries? When all that happened was an adventure, and every experience was an exploration?
Sometimes I wish I could go back in time and experience those simple but genuine moments again. Wouldn't it be great and amazing to perceive the world from the eyes of a kid once again?
As I’ve said in my intro blog, I always give myself some time to be alone — to think, find answers, and reflect. And this is one of those things that I keep thinking about oftentimes — how I love to be a kid again. It sounds ridiculous and ironic because when I was still a kid, I always said, "I wish I would grow up sooner" so that I could already do anything and everything I wanted. But look at me now, already grown up, but oftentimes thinking about how I love to be a kid again.
Oh, I love to be a kid again! When all that mattered were the next wave, the largest sandcastle, and how to catch a fish. The laughing, the free splashes of waters, and countless adventures at the shore are pure happiness in its purest form. If only I have a time machine, then I could rewind the time and enjoy those times again.
I long for the simplicity of how I saw the world before I learned too much about it. Growing up with all the pressures and responsibilities on my shoulders was and is never easy for me. Experiencing those different jobs at a young age was very hard to handle. I even had to set aside my sleep everyday because I studied during the day and worked at night. I have day offs on weekends, but I still lacked rest and sleep because I had to do and finish all my schoolworks. But what can I do? I couldn't complain. I just kept everything to myself and kept going. As the eldest daughter, I felt the weight of my family's hopes and dreams. I was the first child, the one they counted on to free the family from poverty and create a better life. I knew I had to be strong and keep moving forward, no matter how tough things got. There were times when I felt like giving up, when the stress and exhaustion seemed too much to bear. But every time I looked at my family, especially my two younger brothers, I found the strength to carry on. I knew that I wasn't just fighting for myself, but for all of us. I wanted to make them proud, to show them that all their sacrifices weren't in vain. And of course, I don't want my brothers to go through the same hardships that I have gone through. So I kept pushing forward, even when sometimes I feel like the whole world is against me.
Hoping and praying tht slowly but surely, things will start to fall into place. My brothers gave me the courage to keep going. I realized that no matter how hard life gets, there's always hope for a better tomorrow. Oh, how I love to be a kid.. again. Not to change anything that already happened, only just to feel those simple but priceless moments again. But, I don't want my brothers to be one experiencing what I have gone through.
So, I will forever keep going. Do all that I can, and I know someday, I am already in the situation that I am praying right now. Someday, I'll be proud of me.
#I'llKeepGoingICanDoIt! 💪🏻
P.S. sorry if its too much drama, I just can't help to express my thoughs right now! xoxo 🩷