Thank you Sir @johndoer123 for your comforting words, it is just from time to time reality strikes me and the possibilities of worst to come is just right in the corner so it scares me because of my current health situation which not only involves disabilities but also deformities, pain, and expenses.

All these times I am just trying to distract myself from what is the real truth about my existence and what will become of me in the future. I just pray to God to give me more courage because my case is just extraordinary and I hope that I can cope still until God takes me away.

God bless you Sir.