Oh how i wish i could be there for you dear brother. Please try to think positive and know that you are loved. The fear of losing your parents is a real one,but i believe our creator will keep you in his hands and always provide for you. I also say, please never give up and do your best to keep your faith and as you know when it is your time, He will come for you. And he will lift you up and strip away all your pain and hardships. You will have a new body like one none of us can even imagine. You have been so strong in your faith, that it must be true that He has a special place reserved for you...but only when that time comes.
Until He does come to release you from your burdens, you must do your best to be strong. And I want you to know, should you need a shoulder to lean on or for me to lend you some strength, I am here for you my dear brother. I love you and send you and your family my best loving vibrations.