If I had the money to get totally freed in being with my parents I would like to just move away and for many reasons. It is just the love of a parent is so much important to me, and now that I had been with them all these years it is now hard to really get detached from their presence.
My mother is like God's hands for me I would tell her what I wanted like wanting to buy this or that around the neighborhood then she would do it for me. She prepares my food and asks me if I would like to eat if I haven't already.
Mother also washes my clothes, for the three of us she does that job. I just hope that I can buy a fully automatic clothes washer so that she can just put dirty clothes in it and then taking it out to dry to dry without all that tedious task of rinsing washed clothes.
Sometimes I felt such embarrassment when I am with my parents at dialysis because of my age. So now I felt embarrassed to reveal my age for that matter. I should just hire a nanny but I cannot easily afford such I could say a "necessity" because of my medical condition.
But I also wanted to be with myself in my own house or place and get away from my parents just to save them from dealing with my troubles. But since the family ties here in my country is so strong they just can't allow or will never allow me to do that idea knowing that I needed their help because of my disabilities with my body.
The option of having to be on my own is always on the table. If I would get the chance and the means of being on my own then I would take that path for the said reasons. Actually my mother is also one of the barriers on what I wanted to do in my life but for now I am or we are stuck to one another so i have to contend with my situation and hope for the bast into what my future holds for me.
It is just my limited finances that is one major reason that I could not move away from my parents currently but surely enough if I would have the means necessary then it is just time to be on my own. s much as possible I do not want to bother anyone anymore and at the same time get a little once of freedom in my life.