Hey guys just wanted to share a little about my daughter's big day and a little history about myself. So today my daughter turned two years old. She is my first and only child and at the age of 33 I never imagined I'd be having my first kid. Well sometimes life throws you curves and as the song says you learn to swerve. Right? So after preparing all week for her party today. We was up till 3 am getting the decorations and cupcakes made. Me and my wife really did go all out. Some might have even called it over kill for a two year old. But the look on that little girl's face this morning when she woke up and came into the kitchen and saw all her Minnie mouse decorations and Minnie cupcakes etc. The happiness was worth every minute of climbing up in chairs and hanging streamers and balloons from the ceiling. I guess in a way I feel like I owe it to her like I'm indebted. 6 years ago I hurt my back at work. In unbearable pain my wife finally talked me into going to see a Doctor well after x-rays then MRIs they determined I had ruptured disc. Well with out insurance and not a ton of money to pay for surgery. The doctor decided to write me a prescription of pain pills and a appointment for next month. Not realizing the pills was 24/7 7days a weeks for all month. So I took as prescribed and returned the following month only to get the same but told the doctor now wanted me to go to his pain clinic. Me being a first time pain patient or what not . Thought cool maybe their gonna do something to help me get this straightened out now. By the time I made it the pain clinic I was 60 days or so in taking Percocet 10 mg four times a day every 4-6 hours as needed. This day was just the beginning of what would be four years of some of the worst hell I could ever imagine one could inflict on himself. As I kept going to the pain clinic and taking the medication. The medicine worked less and less the more I took the less it worked and the more addicted I became. To the point my monthly scripts last maybe two weeks. I was buying all I could get my hands on I overdosed more time than I can remember but by the grace of God am still here. Well after being told we would never have a kid due to my wife's indometriosis. After 12 years of marriage she ended up pregnant. I decided it was time to clean up and get straight. Easier said then done though as the physical addiction was something I was not completely away of until I came off of them. Once out of my system I felt like I was gonna die. Not because I wanted the high because after being on them so long I rarely got high any ways it was something I needed just to have the energy to get out of the bed just to feel normal somewhat. So all threw the pregnancy I really wanted to get clean just couldn't figure out how. Then come the due date and I wasn't quite prepared for the event that was about to take place. When my daughter came into this world and I held her for the first time. Everything changed I knew now was the time to become the man I wanted to all along. I decided to get help. I wanted my little girl to have the father I never had. I wanted her to have a great life growing up way better than what I had as a child. I wanted to be the best father on the face of this planet. I started with stopping going to the pain clinic. I had started taking Suboxone to help with the withdrawals and one heck of a reminder of why I had to stay off pain pills. Turns out my wife had videos of me when I overdosed that I had never seen. When I saw those videos of me trying to get up out of the bathroom floor, slurring my words so bad you couldn't make out what I was saying, and breathing so heavily that I sounded like I was almost snoring though still somehow,somewhat awake. So with all the motivation in the world I began my journey back to a sober life. My little girl, my world that made each day worth waking up and dealing with life sober even threw the pain. These videos to show me I not only should've been dead but very well could be and my family. Who threw it all still had my back. Now two years sober. Totally clean from pills. My marriage is better than it has ever been. All due to this little angel that makes everyday worth waking up. Who puts a smile on her momma and daddy's face even on the not so good days. She makes us laugh and makes us cry. All the joy she brings into our lives. There's no way I can repay her for all she's done for her daddy in the two short years she been here. So anything i can do for my little angel to make her special day as special as possible I'm game. We love you boo boo hope you get to look back and read this one day so you can understand how you changed and saved daddy's life and probably marriage and now that your hear our life would never be the same without you baby girl we love you to the moon and back baby love you momma and daddy.
