Day by day I think of you
and the children you have given birth now.
I imagine if they would look beautiful like you,
your sweet smile and laugh.
I wonder the strong and responsible man you have become,
would you have your father's character, or you be more like me, your mother.
Are you growing so well?
I wish all the answers are known to me.
All the time we spent together was like a joke to us,
we always fight and shout at each other.
We grew up together when you were still a little baby.
Now you have grown up to teenage,
our words were mean towards each other.
We watch the way we speak to each other,
Everything about us was the same,
But our gender and name was different.
There is so many things I wish to change,
If only you could see,
Regretting some few rough years.
Tears keeps flowing down,
I wish I could change those rough years.
If all this were true,
We would still be together.
I keep having troubled mind,
Not a good friend and who to blame.
My mind should be focused right now,
But I keep having your thoughts in me.
I just want to write everything down,
I want let go of the pain,
before it makes me mad.
Nothing could take your place in my heart.
I just want you to know few things.
I am sorry for all the bad times we had,
and I am so grateful for being good to me.
I wish I could switch places with you,
In my thoughts you are still alive in my heart.
Nothing can separate us,
I love you Mom.
