Thank you for your appreciation! Oh, I also hold a very nice and dusty University degree diploma. I have not practiced in the field either -journalism. Thanks God that I did not pursue a master or Phd, in the hopes for more ...."knowledge".

Despite not being useful, that diploma and all of the not so inspired choices brought me to this very point. Where I can see through my decisions and peak at the lines of my mental code. And it is quite a challenge to deal with that on its own.

What a great idea to find your calling! I remember hearing about it and I can try to write it right now:
A. Drawing and painting

B.Reading ..reading stories and fairytales and using my imagination and writing.

C.Spending time in nature exploring things . I loved to sit for hours outside . I also loved to look at the stars at night. I still do.

D. New experiences- to try new stuff, to test my limits, to pursue more

E. Gardening like taking care of plants , reading about nature and admiring the world around me

Uhm this was a nice exercise haha.

A job in the traditional sense also eludes me. I often wondered if there is a broken piece in my brain which can't understand the concept. Now I see that the concept itself has no sense.

If you have a blessed life and feel genuinely happy , peaceful , loved and truly do what you only feel, then you really do not need any external validation. Poor is usually associated with failure but so many rich are poor when you take a look at their soul and at their character. Richness is great is it leads you to your purpose. And working for money for an amount of hours decided by someone else just seems wrong.

Yes, what speaks to my soul is what matters. It demands a lot of effort to gain the clarity to see through everything and reach to the core.

Thank you for your input, it was helpful🤗