I have been absent for quite a while and that is unusual of me . Long story short I am making some changes in my life and finding a balance in the midst of everything is a challenge.
I am selling my beauty salon and I am moving out of my country.
I can now understand even more human nature and how attached we can become of material things , ideas. Many have raised their brows at my actions, not grasping how I could just let it all go and move on. From the outside it looked like I had the dream life. Few would know the struggles and my own dreams that I had postponed by living a life which no longer suited me.
Whenever we make changes and we have to give up and let go of things we can be seen as heroes or as failures. I have received the both types of feedback and I selected what was positive. I have the power to look at this as being the best experience I could have ever had. I take it as a life lesson. Believe me that you truly know who your friends are when you are in tough times and I am so grateful that going through adversity in the last 4 years taught me so much about myself and others.
What I can clearly feel now is that no matter how I would have wished for things to be different, they are in fact perfect just the way they are. I would not know and feel the things I feel now without the setbacks. I am grateful that people said no, it opened new doors for me. I am happy that I can take the experience with me, it is more valuable than 4 walls or any material goods. I am at peace knowing that in the toughest times my faith in the Divine grows even stronger.
Some thoughts that I had during these times:
You can call a place home only when you feel love being present there
Your enemies are your biggest teachers. I thank every bully for making me peal my own wounds and heal through watching mirrored parts of me in them
You can get more money and buy more goods but you can't get more time or buy love
Love is the most beautiful treasure we will ever own without ever owning at all because it is there inside all the time for those who have the heart to feel
Tough times reveal soft hearted people
The Universe is always in perfect order, even in the midst of chaos
Failure is society's shame word for experience. Show me a successful man who has never failed, for every one I will show you 10 who shamed him while they never tried
You will always regret what you didn't do. Fear is the biggest enemy because it destroys you from the inside
Your biggest critics will be those who will not dare to look at their stagnant life so shaming you is their way to self -soothe. Move on anyway and have compassion, they are in fact sad and lonely
We can always change our life
And my most important lesson I thought about
The most valuable thing is not your job, your goods, your status, the number of friends or your success. The most valuable thing is what you become as a human being in the pursuit for the life you dream of. If you look in the mirror and are happy knowing that people smiled because of your presence in their life you can be at peace. Become a person of value. Respect your word and your promises and have good character, the Universe pays you back multiplied.
I might not return too soon to my usual routine but I shall keep you updated once I settle into the new...home.
