She took my happiness away - My First Online Dating Experience
My online dating experience began on the first day I met my ex girlfriend, I can not recall how many times, I have warebill gifts to her, and she was only calling me when she needs a gift, whenever we talk, she would tell me, how she missed me, how she do me this, and how she do me that, and all this loving words were making my body to sweet, she nearly make me to fly in the air because of love.
During those days with my ex, she would start with no other words than, honey pie, I used to be very happy when she said it, but I became to wonder, if all this her misses of a thing is true, what's actually stopping her from coming to see me.
Then on a certain time we chat, I asked her to come for the weekend, and the replies she gave me was, I should not worry, because when she is coming to see me, she would stay for three months, so I should just be prepared, yet, I was preparing up to a year and she didn't come.
Actually, I thought of giving up on it, since the affection was base on online, yet each time i think about her, i used to be so convinced about what I felt, because the love didn't seems so ordinarily, it was so strong that whenever I am talking to her, I was capable of seeing her images on my door post standing and starring so amicably to me, then I was convinced that i have found my soulmate and I was holding on to it to the day I was going to see her.
Nevertheless this girl didn't stop giving me the brake light that we are meant to be, she was saying all things to make me believed that her love was from above, up to the point of telling me, i shouldn't worry that, from now onward she has come into my life, my love life is going to be sweet, sweeter, sweetest, therefore, it will never remains the same.
I didn't know where she takes those rhymes, because whenever she say those to me, those sweeting rhyme's she used was touching me so quickly, so she easily gets me into it once more and this time, I was giving all what she asked for once she just utter.
when I think about it now, I just laughed at all those nonsense I did then, and I tends to reason if it's was me in another man's head doing all those things.
Even as that, how can I just fall in love with someone I haven't seen before, yet I continue to sent a lot of gifts to her, even to the last minute she was cutting me off, I still jonse on top, I recalled very well that she asked for a wrist watch that day and if you see me that time, I didn't have any wrist watch but I buy and sent for her.
When my eyes were open and I realized, I was in a lorry that was riding me to a river, infact, my eyes were not open, she help me and open my eyes, after she have finished with me.
I became to be so angry whenever someone tell me somethings about love. Thereafter, I met this new girl and she make me know something, that I shouldn't worry too much about the past, she coach me to get that heavy hurts out of my mind, in her coaching was where I realized that love is beautiful.
Even as that, I was still finding it so hard to believe when my girlfriend tells me that she missed me due to the experience I once had, yet with time, I was able to overcome it and I realize, I was just needing the right person to give my heart to, since my heart is like a balloon, and anywhere the wind pushes it to, is where it would go.
Luckily for me, i have seen the right wind that's keeping me in the right direction, without me experiencing deceit.