Have you ever felt this way; pale and washed out, drained, stressed and such other emotions?

Oh yes. After my health started heading down hill a few years back. That and with the stress of my work with the government job. Finally forced into medical retirement. It was a lot.

How do you push on with the complexities and situations causing you to feel that way?

Back then I didn't. My "brain broke". I lost myself completely. Went off the rails. I was an asshole.

Do you ignore what has to be done in deference to your feelings and emotions and sense of self-preservation or do you delve within to find those hidden reserves of energy and motivation?

Do now. Occasionally it takes time. But I do it. It can be through reading, meditation, or just sitting on the patio with a beer taking in the lovely flowers we have.

Have you ever fallen in a heap and not pushed forward? How did that go for you?

No need to lie, yeah. After my mental break I speak of above, which lasted for a few months. I closed off and stayed in bed for like two to three weeks. Didn't end up going well at all. Nothing came of it. Had to finally kick myself in the ass, along with my wife.