What’s your status this Valentine's Day? In a relationship? Single? It's complicated? Study first? Well, no matter what status you carry this heart day, I am happy that you’re here witnessing another event full of emotions and feelings. For me, having emotions means that you’re a normal and functioning human. At least you’re not a robot or you don't have Alexithymia.
If you ask me how’s my day, I will describe it as a boring and melancholic movie colored in black and white. There’s no something special, no romantic partner, and currently recovering from my past relationship. I don't know my relationship status. Maybe I’ll label it as complicated because I can’t understand myself.
Out of all the Valentines passed, it's my first time to feel this way. I remember that the previous years, I don’t care about this event. I’ll just do what I need to do and the day will pass without me noticing it. I just disregard it and everything is still just fine.
I don’t know why, but I think my primitive instinct of finding a partner is already kicking in. My hormones and other brain activity are telling me that I am already in my 20s and I am lonely and I need to find someone to fall in love with. But I just can’t do anything about it because I am still healing from my recent relationship, and I am scared to risk it again. My brain and my heart is contradicting each other!
I guess my ancestors are looking and laughing at me, and probably they won’t be so proud, lol.
To all of the peeps who are currently in a relationship, how are you? Is your heart being cared for by your partner? What’s your plan for this day? I hope you’re having a great day.
Probably, some of you will ignite a fire tonight. Just a reminder if you are not yet ready to be a parent, be responsible! If you will light a firecracker, make sure to blow it outside not on inside. Or just use protection so you will not overthink later. Life means suffering so don’t bring another human being into this world if you will make living more difficult for him/her. Aside from that, we don’t need other Scorpios in our population, jk.
For a single like me, this day is like we are pretending that I was happy with ourselves but actually we will be happier when we have someone.
I have class today, luckily. There’s something that will distract me. Academics will be my Valentine’s treat for myself because I believe knowledge is power and a great investment in myself.
But to be honest, I just don’t have any other things to do today so I have no choice but to seat in front of my computer and listen to my English professor who can’t even use a PowerPoint presentation to discuss what she’s talking about. This setup would be great if we’re in a bedroom setup and all of us want to sleep.
I have no particular plans in mind for this day. Maybe I’ll just watch a Netflix series? Just sleep because I feel bored and sleepy? Or just continue writing this gibberish? Actually, I don’t know what will this blog be all about, lol. I am just compiling all of my random thoughts. Doing this helps me to become distracted and waste my time on a healthier purpose. Instead of just scrolling on my phone and using social media for the whole day, which may worsen my Valentine's loneliness, I’ll just use my time on ‘productive’ endeavors.
Valentine's Day can bring up a mix of emotions, whether it be joy, sadness, or confusion. No matter what your relationship status may be, it's important to take care of yourself and prioritize your well-being. Whether it's through academics, hobbies, or socializing with others, find ways to distract and uplift yourself that align with your values and what makes you happy.
Remember, you don't have to be in a romantic relationship to feel loved and fulfilled. You can find love and happiness in many forms, such as friendship, family, and community. So, whether you're single or in a relationship this Valentine's Day, embrace the moment and focus on what truly matters – your own happiness and well-being.
If you want to feel less lonely this day, hop on the Hive PH Discord server and have a talk with the community. There are so many great people there which may help to feel better. I am currently active there, and I am trying to be consistent with my presence. They’re my valentines date for now hahaha. See you around!
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