I have always felt that I was empathic, but I'll be honest when I say that in the past I was far from a responsibly empathic person. I was one of those people that would give and do things for people, especially those I cared about, and I never felt that I was a good person and in some ways it was as much of a punishment to myself as it was to benefit them. I don't want to blame anyone or anything for how I ended up in that situation, but repressing my emotions and having no real sense of self was not a stable way to care. I have been feeling a state of neutrality towards people and events lately, but perhaps it's just learning how to care and be able to detach enough that I am not affected by the outcome of events.
Perhaps it's the belief in the law of attraction and realizing that I don't need anyone else to validate my actions or emotions, or perhaps it was learning that I could still put myself back together when I felt like I had nothing left inside. I have had quite a few opportunities to help others financially lately and I prefer to do this anonymously. I find it interesting that the more responsible I am with my own personal well-being, the more I have to give and share with others. Perhaps it's the law of attraction working out for me, but it seems that the universe is always taking care of me in these situations too now. I honestly don't need to understand it or care to dwell on it too much, but I can say that being responsible with attachment and expecting nothing from those I help, not even friendship or them being aware of the fact that I did anything, is extremely freeing for me personally. Namaste.
