You can listen to my latest podcast expanding on this subject, over on Spotify
I don't feel my palette of clothes to be excessive in the usual sense of ego and trying to look like something that we think others will be impressed by/ attracted to; I love this wealth of potential, because it has been harvested so so slowly and with a tiny dripdrip of resources. (If you follow my blog regularly, you'll know it is almost ALL from the 50c stall in Telese Terme's Saturday market!) Which makes me think of crypto, and how the very-slow, very-long-term is a beautiful - even spiritual - model of thriving.
My journey in crypto began I think through meeting Anja back when I was doing Marie Forleo's B-School (yuck! - the get-rich programme that finally convinced me that earning in the conventional way was NOT for me!) I seriously had spent, up to that point, about 90% of my adult working lifeline exploring commerce; courses, programmes, mentoring, experimentation in pop-up shops and galleries, events and festivals, art fairs and commissions, branding and social entrepreneurship... It had been a long, hard learning curve, over at least 30 years of striving to find a concept/ structure/ method for making money... but somehow I was still on the flat plains of not-earning. Hmmm.
Anja did an interview with me at the time, late 2018/ early 2019, and that conversation was hugely helpful in reorienting after being effectively flung off of mainstream 'social' 'media'. Talking with her allow me to reflect on what I was even using the internet for, and where I actually wanted to be socially, economically, holistically. The new world I was coming into - then Steemit, D-Tube, etc - seemd like a great quick fix for all the community, witnessing and earning that I appeared to be completely locked out of in the mainstream.
The real fabric of our interconnectedness can be elusive: we all seek more connection, more community, more flow and spontaneous co-creative energising in our everyday. But this seemed like an impossible kind of Shangrila in the virtual world! How can one be fully present, and collaborate with others, when they are in different cultures, times zones, climates and norms?? And when my basic tech was only giving a grainy, clunky, frequently-frozen window into others' lives, works, characters??? Again, I tried in dribs and drabs to get that identity of connection via continuity and a kind of 'branding', hoping I was going to become 'popular' or even just to be SEEN... to little effect. But some roots and shoots began to form. I persevered with posts about the magical place in which I live, my quiet adventures DIY and fixing up my Italian medieval quarter home (and community!), my Art., and my thriving in Gift economy...
The 'lockdown' proved to be a turning point in my relationship with the internet, crypto and the Hive blockchain: for better or for worse, I was fully-in, and would not be going back to earning the regular way; my income plummeted, and my quality of life - though initially was shaken and needed some tweaking - began to climb. The local community locked me out, but the world opened up online. This seemed strange to me: it went against all my programming and all-my-eggs-in-one-basket-ing that I'd been doing up to that point in my life, by expecting to depend always on fiat currency, pounds and pennies, euros and cents. In parallel with the realisation that I didn't WANT to be part of the conventional economy (when it appeared that we might be imminently expected to take a lethal jab just in order to buy our daily bread and milk), there rose this recognition that it WAS possible to connect online, if one's attention, intention and shared vision were fully present. It simply required commitment.
During the 'lockdown' (I never consented to lock myself in my own home, and was out and about more than ever!) I started developing relationships with myriad communities and individuals, most of which petered out after a year or two, and finding that the intimacy, warmth and meaning I was looking for was entirely achievable online, with a bit of effort and time. I began with leading Art. workshops, and developed regular Co-Creation meet-ups, and found that deep, expansive conversation about what was really happening in the world, was entirely possible. Hallelujah! I found my tribe, if it was a bit here and a bit there... As many of the groups set up (effectively) in opposition to the 'lockdown' no longer had the momentum behind them, and as life calmed to a bizarre new 'normal', I was incredibly grateful for the growing relationships I had - most of which were now through The Hive and the Signal App. I was able to navigate how the world was shifting ONLY through sharing online, blogging, podcasting and conversing privately... And the communities: sharing my domestic alchemy journal, The Art Of Life and my Living In Gift experiences, I started to feel - THIS is what I need, want and vision: a holistic spontaneous interbeing with other living women and men, very simple really!
And what happened to my exploding crypto income? Oh, well that didn't seem so relevant, in the end. But it is there: I was able to avoid several near-disasters financially by pulling from my Hive wallet. I now possess a small (what I jokingly term) 'nest egg' of BTC. I got my podcast on Fountain at last, and am stacking SATS. My Patreon continues to give me fiat pocket-money that I can subsist on, and produce appears in the semi-abandoned gardens below my home, just as I need it... And - most importantly - my mind and heart are calm about any eventuality that will unfold with banking, authorities, and the increasingly absurd 'norms' of mainstream.
I love my journey on Hive and in crypto; I love realigning with real values, of being rewarded and rewarding others for beautiful things: for gardening and cooking, sharing their emotions and expressing their Truths, for seeking answers and being inventive and genius! I LOVE the daily comfort of being held in communities - being witnessed in all my failings and successes, winning an occasional contest or being Gifted a tip or present of tokens. It is all positive, and it feels like we are all in this for each other as much as for our selves!
This is different from the mainstream models, where, despite all the positive talk of revolution and resistance, change and transformation, healing and evolution - still the focus is on structures that alienate our creative power, the sacred feminine, the quiet Truth of us all ALREADY being powerful, beautiful, free, rich in Oneness. For all the chat and blah about change, most folks in the 'alternative' world cannot see beyond the pyramid that they've been cultured to see as 'the only way', which at least keeps them in benefits and priveleges, whilst those below them invisibly toil and strain to hold them above...
all photographs on this post taken by myself - in and around my home in Guardia Sanframondi, Italy, and on the Isle of Arran, Scotland