So, I will be torn apart

And I'll love that.

I'VE LOVED that.

Yes, that already happened.
I know that.

I know that it will happen.
That's all that I want.

SO, it will happen.

Logical !

I've just come back from the future to tell you.

Do you know what I really need in my life ?
I need ALL.

Just that.

3 letters : all.

Some may want : a comfortable house with a big car and a marvellous wife and children and cocaine and three guinea pigs to juggle.

But that would be 93 letters.
So "all" is a very modest request.

Let's be serious.

You know that this world is mad.
Completely.

Incomprehensible.

You'll never really win on it.
You'll die, fighting, struggling.
Always.

The only way out is the death, and all the various and refined sufferings preceding.
Too hard, too cold to live, if you don't have some fire to warm you up.

Yes, sure : you can find some fire on Earth.
Sometimes.
A little flame, or big blazes.

At best, some find gods.

I've thought at it. I've looked at it.
A bit.

But in fact, it's like a lot of these ones are rather sado-masochistic.

This is a desperating observation, coming to the mind that nothing seems to be up to our level of intrinsic fragility.

How to take some height on that ?
Enough, to compensate the conscious of the almost nothingness of our molecules ?

Philosophy can be a solution. Art too. Philanthropy too.
Rafts over the flow.

But I can also frequently have seasickness.

Remembering in my life, and especially from my early years, what made me completely non-mad... completely happy... was the Universe itself.
The Space.

Because it's so huge that it contains everything.
It contains ALL.

It is all.

Celestial objects, such as stars, nebulas, galaxies, black holes... are so BIG, immeasurably greater than you, that you just forget to think at yourself, you don't see yourself anymore, in particular as a miserable human with his miserable thoughts and miserable sufferings.

And if you were still doing... you understand that, yet, there are ONLY 4 fundamental forces that govern such gigantic entities.
And that they simply just govern you too!

Nothing else.

As if you were just part of these structures.

(gravitational force, electromagnetic force, strong nuclear force, weak nuclear force)

For real !

Gods don't exist. Love doesn't exist. Thoughts don't exist. Sufferings don't exist.
In themselves.

For instance, we are biological living beings ; but our biology is almost entirely funded on the principles of the only electromagnetic force (which governs the unfolding of the chemical reactions of the molecules of our body).

If a man and a woman bond on Earth... and even if there's still a lot to discover on the subject... that's sure because of chemical reactions.
Because there's electrcity in the air.

Love is in the air.

As the gravitational force that bonds the Earth and the Moon is in the Space.

So... how can you still suffer to search for explanations and meanings for your life ?
You've already got the 4 fundamental and only forces that move the entire world ; and yourself.

You now know that all your human considerations and problems are totally superfluous.
That they are just secondary expressions of the life of the Universe itself.

Thus, you learn to support life more easily.
And kind of love all the dirty tricks and twisted games it brings to you.

And yes, one day, you will be torn apart.
Just as a star explodes and spreads all of its molecules all around.

I will be torn apart.

We will never be what we were just a second before.
Peace will arise for our souls, for our ancient conscious to be that particular setting of particular molecules.

That's all I ever wanted.

And I'm not in a hurry.
I'll HAVE it.

I now know that.

Space Dementia.
MUSE