I was once told that life is meant to be about good times, love and happiness which makes a lot of sense to me.
Life isn't always like that though because we can't control everything and we make bad personal decisions, some decisions we make don't go to plan, and we fall victim to chance and happenstance and other people's actions as well; but I agree that everyone has the right to a happy and good, love-filled life.
It is with that thought I chose to forgive myself a long time ago.
I forgave the bad decisions I made and how I made myself feel because of the consequences of those decisions. I forgave myself for repeating behaviors which I knew were not acceptable and I forgave myself for not being where I felt I could have been in life had I gone through this process earlier. It was then when I became ready to travel forward into my life in better ways with my load feeling so much lighter and life seeming brighter.
It's easy to succumb to the shadow and shun the light, a person only needs to do nothing.
But finding light, and being our own light for ourselves and others, is much more difficult. The thing is that one course of action will bring better results, more self respect and the good times, happiness and love that I believe we all deserve, it's a decision we can all make.
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