It is exactly as you describe it. I believe that we have all been affected to some extent by the situation of the country, both those of us who are still here, and those who were here at one time and now reside in another country. Many times I reproached myself and in fact I still do it sometimes because I see that many other people who are here in the country are doing well and I can't get it to be that way in my case even if I give my best effort. But then I think about that, that we are not all the same and we have several different aspects that make us be or get where we are, but at the end of the day we are all giving our best effort according to we're able to do and our level of consciousness.

Being in that hole, wanting to get out and feeling the powerlessness take over. As if every effort is futile and sinks you further. I think it was a very good decision to leave and at a time like that. And yes, every beginning is difficult. I am really glad that after having gone through that you have taken off and seen the results of your will, effort, patience and perseverance!!

The experiences always leave us warm marks or scars, many depend on the perception with which we look at them in the moment and later, but from each and every one we have the learning to go in continuous improvement and evolution. Although sometimes we take much longer to get out of them, and that time depends on our perception and what our ability allows us. That fight with oneself is too hard, sometimes I'd like to learn to box to knock out that inner self that gives me so much to do and make me believe that I can't xD but at the same time it's like my motivation. Thanks for taking your time to read this and your good vibes!!:D