I spent more than 1 hour I think reading your post but I made it! :D heheh

What an amazing story! You've passed through a lot and I can 100% relate to you, I've been stuck very deep in the hole and I know how bad it feels, especially if you're certain that you want to get up but don't know how or because of other circumstances it's just very difficult. I wish people outside as well as inside Venezuela could understand how much the country situation affects people, whether they realize it or not, and even more if one has a condition; also that they could realize that not everybody is the same, that there are countless contexts, that as there's people having successful lives in Venezuela there's also people who are having really hard times and it's not because they're not trying their best or are just being lazy, because laziness doesn't exist and social psychology proves that.

I'm pretty sure I have social anxiety even though I have never visited a psychologist, it has affected me through my whole life and well it's hard; on 2018 before I left the country I was really losing my mind, the country situation plus the context I was in really got me stuck in a deep hole of depression and even though I was trying to do something about I just couldn't, it's like a person without legs trying to walk. Then after I left and arrived to a new country I was still dealing with Post-Traumatic Stress and that plus never being good at handling my emotions and not having empathic people around me didn't help at all, and this contributed to having a really hard first year in this new country.

The good side of this is that one always learns from experiences and at some point one somehow adapts and even finds his/her own ways to improve and kind of builds a way out of the hole, it's kind of a fight with oneself, an everyday fight I would say, so living one day at a time is something you start doing and helps a lot.

I'm glad you're pretty self-aware and made it to where you are now, and I hope you keep on improving and make it to solve your health problem. Also thanks for sharing your story and the mention! :)

Cheeeeeers! :D