外婆茶香鸡
Grandma's Tea-Fragranced Chicken
超市里的花
flowers in the supermarket
最近“老毛病”又犯了，这个“毛病”让我非常恐惧，所以每次都会联想到人生是不是就要终结了，而且似乎女生的事情，也不方便通别人细讲。不过我姐因为大学的时候是学医的，倒是不太忌讳谈这些身体问题方面的事情，也会跟姐姐讨论一下，一来看看跟遗传有没有关系，二来看看有没有相关可以传授的经验，三来取取经看看该怎么处理。这次也和往常一样，问了下姐姐的意见，最后我们得出的结论是，先去看西医，检查一下排除一下是不是有什么病变，如果没什么大碍，再去看中医，开一些中药调养身体。
于是我便想到了前几年生孩子之前经常去找的那位女医生，当时挂她的号就很贵，需要300元人民币，有时候还没沟通啥，这300元就没了，不过好的地方是虽然挂号费很贵，但是开药却比较便宜，印象中是这样的，但是已经不记得当初看病花费的明细了，因为那个时候还没养成记账的习惯。虽然这个医生也很专业，但是我在她那里看了一段时间，各种检查以及她开的药都吃过了，但是我的“毛病”却始终没有被解决。这也是让我觉得恐惧的地方，想想一个专家都没解决的“毛病”，却在我身上发生了好几次了。
最初也是打算再找这个医生看病的，于是我找到了她们医院的公众号，打算在线上预约，结果我搜她的名字，出来的挂号费已经变成了500元人民币了，天啦！这个价格，我真的看不起，都怪自己是个穷人！于是又和姐姐讨论了下，姐姐说可以一开始不挂专家的号，而是先挂普通的号，反正一开始去都是开单子去检查，我想想也是，于是看了下普通的挂号费，最便宜的是50元，而且8天之内的全部都预约满了。只能第二天早上7点起来抢号了，不过谁知道8天之后我的“毛病”是不是就好了呢？哈哈～
晚上订了个7点的闹钟，闹钟响了之后，我当时还有点懵不知道这个闹钟定着干嘛用的，后来我终于想到了，我要抢号，于是赶紧打开公众号抢号，打开一看，上午和下午都还有几十个号，有点犹豫是抢上午的还是下午的，因为要一大早带娃去看医生，所以会有些担心时间太赶，孩子太折腾了。但还是选了上午的，于是又躺着睡觉了，最近没事就睡觉，总感觉没有睡够。等我再醒过来的时候，一看手机，通知我号取消了！！！一看原因，原来是因为我没有付费，好久没去看医生了，都忘了预约之后要付费，一看那天的号又全部都抢光了。
看来只能改天再抢了，下午跟姐姐说了这件事，结果姐姐说北京的挂号费太贵了，南京的只要15元人民币，然后姐姐跟我说自己去开了药，花了600多，看病真的好贵呀！不过还好姐姐有医保又有补充的商业保险，所以自费的部分就比较少了，可能花不了太多钱。可惜我工作的事情迟迟没有落实，所以现在如果去看病还是需要全部自费的。今天意外发现，我这“毛病”已经自愈了，所以还有去看医生的必要吗？哈哈哈～
English version：
Recently, my "old problem" flared up again, and this "problem" terrifies me. Every time it happens, I can’t help but think that maybe my life is coming to an end. And it seems like, as a woman, it's not easy to discuss these issues in detail with others. However, my elder sister, who studied nursing in college, is not so shy about talking about health problems. I often discuss these things with her—for one, to see if it's related to genetics, for another, to gather any useful advice or experience she might have, and finally, to get her perspective on how to handle it. This time, like usual, I asked for her opinion, and the conclusion we came to was to first see a Western doctor to rule out any serious conditions. If there's nothing major, then I should visit a Traditional Chinese Medicine (TCM) practitioner to get some herbal medicine to help restore my health.
So, I thought of the female doctor I used to see a lot before I had children. Her consultation fee was very high, 300 RMB per visit. Sometimes, we wouldn't even get to discuss much, and that 300 RMB would be gone. But the good thing was that although the consultation fee was expensive, the medicine she prescribed was relatively cheap—at least that’s what I remember, though I can't recall the exact breakdown of costs back then because I hadn’t developed the habit of keeping track of my spending. Even though this doctor was very professional, I had seen her for a while, gone through many tests, and taken all the prescribed medication, but my "problem" was never resolved. That’s what scared me—the thought that a specialist couldn’t fix this issue, yet it had happened to me multiple times.
At first, I planned to go back to this doctor, so I found the hospital’s WeChat public account to make an appointment online. I searched for her name, but when I saw the consultation fee had risen to 500 RMB, I was shocked! That price was just too high for me! I blamed myself for being poor! So, I discussed it with my sister again. She suggested I should start with a regular doctor’s appointment instead of seeing a specialist. After all, I was only going to get a prescription and go for tests, not a full consultation. That made sense, so I checked the fees for a regular consultation—the cheapest one was 50 RMB, but all the appointments within the next 8 days were already fully booked. I’d have to get up at 7 AM the next day to抢号 (grab an appointment). But who knows if my "problem" will be recovered by then? Haha~
I set an alarm for 7 AM for the next morning. When the alarm went off, I was a bit confused at first, not really remembering why I had set it. Then I realized—it was to grab an appointment! So, I quickly opened the WeChat account and checked for available slots. There were still dozens of appointments for both morning and afternoon, but I was torn between choosing the morning or afternoon slot. I needed to take my child to the doctor early in the morning, so I was worried about not having enough time and that my child might get restless. But in the end, I chose the morning slot, then went back to bed. Recently, I’ve been sleeping a lot, always feeling like I never get enough rest. When I finally woke up again, I checked my phone, only to find that the appointment had been canceled!!! The reason? I hadn't paid yet. I hadn’t seen a doctor in so long that I completely forgot that after booking the appointment, I had to pay firstly. And by the time I went to pay, all the slots had been taken.
Looks like I’ll have to try again another day. In the afternoon, I told my sister about what happened. She said that appointment fees in Beijing were too expensive, and in Nanjing, they only cost 15 RMB. She also told me she recently went to get some medication and spent over 600 RMB. Healthcare really is expensive! But luckily, my sister has both basic health insurance and supplemental commercial insurance, so her out-of-pocket costs were much lower. If I were to go to the doctor now, I would have to pay everything myself since my job situation is still not settled. However, today I unexpectedly found that my "problem" has already healed on its own, so now I’m wondering if I even need to see a doctor at all? Haha~