You can see me smiling eventhough there are so many burden that I carry on my shoulder but my kids are the reason for me to keep on going after grow. All of the aabove, I am grateful that God is holding my mind and He always reminding me the best way.
During my birthday, my kids was not around, my Mom and Auntie did not give me money. Even my Mommy , the sister of my grandfather was in the hospital for breast surgery. I want to help them but I'm a kind of failure man. I lost my focus. Stress and anxiety stucked on me ang the same day of my birthday I was almost giving up and if I have a gun, I already shot down myself. What made me so sad aside from the family financial instability, I learned that my ex wife have another boyfriend who give her what I could've give. The more I felt smaller everyday. Life is so unfair if we has no money. I heart that during her birthday, they had a big party, attended by some people with car. I accepted that we are no longer meant to be but deep iny heart, I am longing the unity between us for the kids. Thanks God that I never own a gun.
Since birth and even when I wasin jail , they celebrated my birthday. This year was the worst but later my Aunt brought us to the restaurant.
After the surgery of mommy, we knew that the breast is not cancerous. I thank God. My Aunt met accident last Monday when we stopped to our final destination, she was out of balance when her foot tangled to the helmet.We both out of balance and y Aunt had scratches on her head and legs. What had happened was an eye opener how we should love our life. My Aunt is sickly but she tend to be stronger and fought a good fight to live longer for us. My mother still working after almost three decades and just spending vacation sometime because of me. Why I am weak while they sacrifice for me almost all their life because they loved me? A lot of realization popped up in my mind that I should be acting stronger than my family because I am man while they are women. And my kids need me since they are both female who need a father to defense them from intruder.
I wake up with a reflections that made me cried and became stronger after all. God is so good guiding me in my worst moment and bad decision. Prayers is the key to obtain peace of mind that will lead to calm down my life.
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, a father of two beautiful daughters,living in Panabo City of Davao Del Norte