"It's these black and white photographs that make me dream again, now after these long years I finally know that it's Julia's I like. I decided to write this letter so that my conscience may be cleansed from time to time. Before the memory does not betray me, I decided to put on a miserable sheet of paper every year an impossible love.
I am now sixty-four years old and I have a fatal disease with a destiny traced since last January, damn this tobacco that made me lose years of sedentary life in my wooden chair. Love was for me the only richness that made me thank for my existence, although I did not spend it with the woman I always loved, Julia one day in heaven will never forgive me if I had to honor her now in these moments.
Because it was with her that I shared the best moments of my life, it was always Julia that I imagined when I made love to my wife, it was always Julia who came to me when they asked me the woman of my life. Poor young people who think that love is born of a conversation of a virtual world like the Internet, Poor minds those who think that love is born in a first nocturnal somersault. Now that I know that death awaits me and that there is no possible slowdown on this road, I can only ask for forgiveness of life for wanting more than it could offer me, if life forgives me, I can leave with a calm and rejuvenated conscience, Of who returned to conquer a smile that had lost for long years.
I am old enough to be judgmental as my grandchildren say when I decided to schedule a mini family reunion, in which I announced my terminal illness. All my children cried compulsively, my grandchildren were unaware of the statement and innocently continued to play with a ball they had offered for Christmas.
At this meeting I also said that I would write this farewell letter and that nothing could change my mind, since in this life I never had the opportunity to prove my courage in front of my half, I have now the opportunity to do so after dying ...
Saint Julia, you who are in heaven, pardon me this romantic farce that was my life with my wife, you who always advised me to divorce her without ever asking for my love in return. Forgive me this mistake that changed my life forever. "
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