Giving up any project or dream is difficult, as you say, the sentimental part when making decisions was very emotional in your case, and yes, as your mother said, it was what it was meant to be.
Taking it as a learning experience for your son is very valuable

You are a very brave woman because as you say, by making your own decisions you do not harm anyone, on the contrary, you no longer let yourself be manipulated and you can feel people's respect for you,
Thank you for telling us about your experiences, my friend,
!LADY
!PIZZA