She loved it, she lived for it. Soul drenching fear, it was fear but it felt so good. It was her ecstasy, the point where she felt so good even though she was scared, she wanted more.
She woke up early, with the intention of hanging out with friends, today she was gonna get high and with highness come the fear. She had no idea but she was hooked, hooked on the fear she feels accompanied with the heavy buzzing and the over sensitivity that ‘comes with the high. She choose her poison and weed it was. Ever so relaxing and never, disappointing when it came the supply of fear. She craved it.
Sonia dressed and headed out, today was for the gang. She made new friends, they bonded over a very unfriendly situation and she became family, she felt at home considering she already had feelings for one of her newly found friends, it could not have been any better. Out she went and to their door she arrived, a warm welcome as was expected and the boys began the regular banter of yabbing each other and she laugh and laugh, well at this point life felt good and easy. Worries drained away, she was with the gang and most especially her human and it felt good, but she wanted the high and ask she did, and it was ever available.
David rolled a blunt and passed it over to her, she happily went about her smoking, and the music became loud and for a while it felt good, it always feels good before the fear grips her. But she loved the fear, she lived for it, it felt like she was so close to the edge, with so little control but she could not care less because it was bliss. A deadly bliss but bliss all the same. She went one with her smoking and twirling her waist to the music blasting from the speakers in the sitting room and soon her human noticed, and he pulled her away from the others, she want willing. She liked this particular human so much, he does not know just how much she likes him but she does and it aches when she misses him.
Sonia and her human smoked and soon the caressing began, he was wild, her human was never wild, well blame it on the blunt but it felt good, today wasn’t going to be a dull session. Wild was what she craved, and they went at it, cloths flying, they became handsy, and just when it was about to feel so good, the fear gripped her. The fear came at a very wrong time, for the first time she didn’t want this trip, this time it came with self-hate.
Sonia felt worthless at the moment, all the desires went away, she felt so useless, and it was a heavy feeling. She wanted nothing but the good high right now, this fear was not need but she couldn’t help it, she hated herself and hated the act, and her human noticed. He asked, babe are you okay? Because she became stiff, paralysed with fear, hating herself and forgetting that there was a naked human in front of her. She scrambled for her cloths and she ran into the next room.
He followed her, he did not know it yet, but he was into her as much as she was into him, he cared, you could see it in his eyes and she was worried. She always craved his touch so what had he done wrong, these thoughts ran through his mind as he went after the woman who left him high and dry. He found her curled into a ball on the bed, sobbing and he cuddled her and she asked him, have I lost all sense of decency in front of you? He was shocked and asked her where these feelings where coming from and she shared her tale of fear to him and how at the moment she had let win. The very audible twist. What she loved the most was becoming the death of her.
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