2017Sept01
The past couple days have been strange. I've had some cool experiences that really helped me get some perspective in that time. Most of it isn't my story to share, but I can say that perspective is definitely both a blessing and a curse. Learning that people really do trust me over the past three or ten years of relationship building in Portland has been an eye opening experience.
Part of this is from my metaphysics class, and a lot of it I saw for myself. I might have picked up some neat Juju* along the way, but that's not really the important part. You can see my disclaimer on that below.
What's important though, is I got to see one of the ways I can help people. A friend of mine made a small choice years ago that changes my life in a very big way... something he might not have really been able to face at the time. I'm starting to see what the consequences of that choice are for me, and every time it comes up, I get a little more confirmation on that. I don't really know what the consequences were for him, yet, but I can still be there and listen when he needs it.
Despite the bullshit I've been through, I'm still generally happy. I still struggle with homelessness and getting my basic needs met (for now), but I want to Evolve, and that means learning and growing up a little.
I still want to smoke, and get into rubbery mischief, talk about Juju, and make new friends. I don't think that's going to change. I think it means that I need to talk about things like survival, community service, and whatnot, too. I haven't figured it all out, and it'll be an adventure to learn.
Even if parts of it are more domestic than exciting.
