God bless you - what a wonderful reply! We've all read about manifesting, but your map of words and your grandma attesting to it - that's the kind of motivator I can relate to. Thank you for the kind words.

I did shut down and retreat - mostly due to my family (but not my husband! He's awesome! and our youngest daughter!) - too many of us died young, and unlike @myjob, I didn't soldier on. Maybe I should have taken up fishing! A wonderful book I often quote, "The Connection Cure" by Julia Hotz, devotes a chapter to the healing powers of fishing... but that's a whole other story.

Thank you Nancy!