A panic attack - you! Somehow I imagine you are so far above the rest of us in your ability to cope, to find beauty, peace, joy, and solace in nature -- and to express it so well in poetry. For you to feel panic may be shocking to me, but no surprise, you work it out without medical intervention. You delve into it, instead of "shaking myself out of it," and imagine the fear/anxiety leaving, and - this is the amazing part - you're not just at peace. You're elated! And you sleep well!
Lately I've been awake half the night.
So I've taken up listening by day to some peaceful background sounds, namely, one particular Gregorian chant, because, THE BASS omg. Tim had to explain to me that, no, one man does not sustain that note for an hour. Another man comes along and picks it up (seamlessly), perpetuating my illusion that one bassist can hum that note for all eternity. Sorry to derail as always on some weird tangent, but I'm doing the work (kinda, sorta) to achieve clarity and tranquility without Rx meds (my middle child tells me to get medicated to get chill and I continue to resist).
Oh, if you get caught up in cutting carrots in the kitchen and have nothing else you really want to listen to, give the chant a chance - I am seriously addicted to the "one man" (is it really more than one?) sustaining this awesome bass note. (I forgot to ask Tim what this voice would measure in Herz - there's a topic for a whole thread on these gazillions of music videos claiming the "God note" is 999 Hz, or 963, or... which is it? Tim says they're blowing smoke and to pay no attention.) Well, I say "the God note" is this bass line in this chant: