That was an emotional rollercoaster of a read, to put it mildly. It isn't easy to put yourself out there like this using your words so I am impressed and very pleased that the word gave you the opportunity to do that.

I don't really have any grounds to comment on your own decisions, but I'd just say that you have to live inside your own mind 24/7, so whatever you feel is best for you is the most important (it's never black and white though, time opens the doors and closes them).