Reflecting is a look in the mirror of your inner self. When I look in the mirror I often see what I want to see. The ego tends to switch into a kind of defense mode, right? I'm fine, must be the others. I know it all too well.
In this mode, however, reflections are rarely possible. Because no man is an island and looking at ourselves with painful honesty brings to light everything we accuse others of. Because it is often precisely the qualities that bother us in others that are inherent in us. Those qualities that we fear for ourselves.
I don't want to be or become like that.
What resonates with it is the possibility that it could happen that way. That we may carry those qualities within ourselves. My ego liked to suppress that and is still often trying too. The moment I realized that I myself are often what I don't want to be, sucked big times. It is a painful process of self-knowledge that can end in wonderful things but at the same time is infinite. I realized for myself that too often in my blame games, good advice giving and tries to please society I was exactly what I pointed out in others.
Sucks, right?
We live in a society in which self-reflection is not necessarily practiced. Politicians who refuse to publicly admit mistakes, a narcissistic economic structure whose only goal is profit, a society of growth, of constant optimization, of pointers and good advice givers. A society of excess and absolute nothingness. We are outraged at everything and everyone and are rarely outraged at ourselves. We like to criticize, but we can rarely swallow criticism. Well, I'm no different than you.
It is complicated and confusing on a high level. I am constantly confused when I deal with myself. It's the most uncomfortable thing I can do. This self-reflection. Yet it is the best thing.
Reflecting sucks up a bit of energy and what you reflect for yourself is not necessarily the end of story or easy to put in words sometimes, neither is it easy for people to follow those crazy epiphanies you may have while reflecting, nor is it that you wanna share it or others give a damn.
For maximum confusion I will end this post right here. For sure, I'll burst in again with a post.
C'mon, this pic is symbolic for self-reflection ;)
Just as this one. Title: LIFE
On a personal note: I shot this pic a few months ago while driving my car, yet it looks vintage, like from the '90s. Achievable by breaking your phones cam and still using it, your welcome and yes, it is exactly what you got back then after waiting for 3 weeks until your pictures got developed at a place far away from home. Some of you may remember those days of endless excitement, the joy of the pending reflection of the things that come to light with every developed photo. What was not photographed where it was then said We photographed that? Reflections of us. I reflected that driving and taking pics is not a good thing ;)
It got out of control, hurry to the last one for today.
As I said, it is complicated. Brains.
