I have looked at a lot of research and come to the conclusions, NASA is a bunch of liars, and i do not know what shape the earth is.

Take for instance that the horizon is at eye level in a plane or on a boat.
That doesn't happen in a ball earth model, nor in a flat earth model. (or light travels in a curve across the planet)

My best guess is that the earth is a shape similar to a toroid, but with the center going asymptotic, and the earth plastered on the inside of this shape.

It could also be that your subconcious projects the universe on a screen that is just out of your reach. So, your view is always centered on you.