Regardless of how I feel, it always dawned on me that life is an experience that is worthwhile.
Experiences that starts from a young age in which we are clueless of what lies ahead while taking guidance from those older than us.
I find it funny at this point because they all make sense that many things I wanted to experience and couldn't just because the time wasn't right.
It's an odd example anyway because it has to do with death.
I never thought about it not until now.
My grandma passed on a couple of months back and I'm glad I saw her December before she passed on early January.
At an early age 6-10, there seemed to be death always lurking because either mum or pop were always getting ready to make a trip to our hometown, Afikpo or somewhere for a burial.
Before getting ready for a burial, there's always this running around to get things in order, like buying materials to sew a clothe because here in my country Nigeria, when there's a ceremony, they sew clothes to identify you with the family and there's always a talk with people about the next trip.
It always sounded exciting to me that I'd have to beg pop or mum to take me along with them on the trip because I felt I was going to miss out on the fun that I ended up crying and pleading till they make the journey.
Pop always had a saying that I came to understand when I knew what burial was all about, "don't worry there are lots of burials for you, I would die, your mum would die, your grandmum would die, your uncle's and aunts would die."
As a kid who would want to listen to such a talk?
Pop was blatant anyway because right now my grandmum is dead and we are burying her and I don't need to cry and plead to travel to our hometown because I'm obligated to be there as her grandchild.
There's certainly time for everything and we need to wait for the the right time while making all the right moves to getting what we want.
We just have to enjoy life as it is now.
As a kid so many things were explained but ignorance played it's part in not agreeing to what was told. We actually neither have the power of right or power to make what we want happen.
The inevitability of life happenings are all what we could only experience while living and passing time on Earth.
I know definitely from where I stand that when I'm told something that I truly don't understand that I just have to remain calm and find out the truth without disputing the judgement that has been made.
Looking back to my young self, I can only see that pain that I caused myself because I didn't understand what I was being told and didn't even believe that there was no fun at all. Time tells it all regardless of how we feel or what we want.
Life is what it is and would keep on on its own way.
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