So the plan was to catch up on sleep today, since I missed quite a lot yesterday.
But I forgot that I had so much adulting to do that there would be no sleep again today.
I do enjoy coding, despite my struggles with it. But it is such a time sink. Its so easy to sit on the couch and start writing and then, before you know it, hours have gone by. Since I'm still learning, I don't make much progress in that time. So I need hours more. A lot of things outside of coding fall by the wayside.
So when I left from bootcamp a couple of hours early to go take a nap, what actually happened was that I had to go do all those errands that haven't been getting done due to losing those hours to coding. Paying bills, buying pool supplies, cleaning up around the house, and a few other things. And when those things are done, then its back to coding. I sure hope I get good enough at coding to be able to handle my other adult responsibilities.
This morning I woke up and realized two things. One, that my head feels very heavy and almost literally like I cannot stuff more knowledge in there. Two, that I've been in the bootcamp for just over a full month and I have learned more coding than I ever thought possible in such a short time. I make jokes about my abilities or how difficult it is to learn but the fact is that I'd been studying casually for months up to this point and never got any farther than learning some vanilla JS. I'd never really built anything at all and barely even did any tutorials. Sometimes its nice to take a look back, take a breath and realize that this experiment in learning and reinvention is not about hitting abstract landmarks but about the struggle itself and getting through it.
I do remember just before bootcamp started that I wondered if I would be able to stay focused on my studies since I would have all this evening freetime after doing my homework. If I only knew!
