It’s been a whirlwind couple of days on my end here. I’m currently in Stamford Connecticut with my daughter as she has to “rush job” her passport. The much more convenient Philly & New York offices were unavailable in short notice, so we had to make the 2 1/2 hour trip last night to be ready for her 10 am appointment. We are sadly still waiting here for it to be processed which is stressful as I have to jet back to Jersey to then pick my wife up…load up the vehicle with their luggage, and then immediately drive them another 1 1/2 hours to Philly where they will be departing for Spain for 2 weeks. Talk about cutting it short…
That then starts the fun 2 week timeframe where I’ll be lone adult in the household. Usually that’s a fun thing that I look forward to but I feel a bit overwhelmed at the moment and like I’m about to crack a bit. Having to juggle rides for my son to and from his job while working myself is going to be a fun treat.
To make matters a bit more complicated, as I wait here for my daughter…my siblings and I were just informed through text that my mother is being placed on Hospice care. She’s been heading down a treacherous and unforgiving path this past decade and it looks as if she may finally find some peace in the somewhat near future.
She’s been in a care facility for the past couple years as her mind and body were ravaged by dementia, Parkinson’s, and other ailments. Seems she hit the end of the road jackpot. She doesn’t speak anymore and just moans & mumbles. Even getting her to smile and be happy seems to be in short supply these days during our visits.
I miss my mom. It’s been years since I’ve been able to have a meaningful conversation with her, although that doesn’t stop me from unloading when I pop in to see her. She always had a way of making me feel better…no matter how dark the day was. I haven’t felt that feeling in a long time. I Almost forget how it feels which hurts even more as I am trying real hard to channel that comfort once more.
I’ll leave with a pic of my mom and I this was after she beat Brest cancer, but before all the other ailments piled on. She was happy here this day.
I don’t know how the near future will be playing out, but I hope that when mom finally leaves this place, that she’s able to finally find some peace, while I try to find some comfort.
❤️ You mama.
