HI Steemians,
If you don’t already know, I’m a high school student and I live in Australia. I’m going into tenth grade next year and I’m coming to the stage where I have to decide which subjects and courses I want to do. Honestly, at this point, I don’t know. And I haven’t known since I quit wanting to be a teacher which was like when I was 10.
I grew up and am continuing to grow up with Asian ideologies in my household. My environment at home and in school has taught me to study hard, do the HSC and get a good ATAR (so basically like your AP in America), go to university, do a degree and find your dream job. The problem is not, studying and working hard, but rather, finding what I want to do, what I want to be, what I want to see myself doing in 10 years time. I, in many ways are jealous of those with an impossible dream. Those who wish to pursue something, to be someone. Those people are who I want to be. They can see their end. They can see straight through it. They just need to walk that rough path, paved out for them. Me, I'm walking through the bush, not knowing where I want to be. I think this is the toughest part in life, deciding what I want to do. The thing is, I know it will come to me and I know it will wake up one day and know. But I fear that my decision will not come to me before I actually have to decide my courses. I know I should choose subjects that I’m interested in and look at my hobbies. But for me, I just spend my time watching movies and am not interested in the entertainment industry. I also find most subjects quite boring. So at this point in time, I’m just studying for something I don’t even know.
This is just a thought of my day as I was completing some homework. I really didn't think much of my career path and what I want to do in the future until now. All I know is that I want to do something where my skill set and competitive personality will be useful. I want to know my purpose.
Thank you.
