All my life, I've never dreamed little, I'm always thinking of getting really rich. Day, night, Its has always been weighing on my mind. How is it done? How did millionaires and billionaires make it? Did they work hard? Was their wealth inherited? No day passes without me thinking about the same thing. During the past few months, I've tried different apps, sites, games and more, but it didn't even bring me as close as 1 percent to my dreams. I would usually create fake scenarios in my head fantasize about how my life would have been if I was actually rich. Would it have been better? Worse? or still normal.
I took a nap today and when I woke up, I felt a surge of willpower go through me. I felt like I could do anything and make it. Due to boredom, I watched an anime this morning, Sword art online, it was about people trapped in a video games. The main character had always wanted to escape reality but after getting trapped for two years in a video game, he realized that the video game was not so much an an escape from reality. Living in fantasies is just a way to blind yourself from reality, thinking you've achieved something could actually make your brain believe you've actually achieved it causing you to feel at ease thus making you unable to actually achieve it.
Due to high costs of data, I hadn't been online for the past week, but after waking up today, I felt the need to do somethings as I hate having regrets. Everyday life for me is just exactly like repeating the last, doing the same thing over and over. I can even barely say I'm just existing because I just hole up at home after trying at something and failing just a few times. I truly envy people that have it their way, their hard work pays off, unlike me, no matter how hard I try, I never get result. Hearing the saying, "work smarter, not harder", i always thought it was for lazy people that don't want to work hard but it seems smart work is really better since the rate of success is actually higher than hard work .
I'm not implying that hard work is fruitless, hard work does pay off, but there are sometimes where smart work beats hard work. People say we need to work hard to achieve anything in life when what we need is to work smarter. Today, I don't remember what I dreamt of, but something in me has awaken, and I'm gonna make good use of it. The present might not be fulfilling, but I'm gonna make the future worth reaching.
