It's official how I now look forward to your posts everyday.
My mum once said something to me, she said most of the times the people that cry the most at the passing of a love one is not necessarily out of grief or pain but actually of regret because they know they could have done more or been around more but they didn't and that has stuck with me till now. Because of this I make sure to always make does that matter actually know they matter not just by words but with actions no matter how little.
I feel guilty that I get to learn alot from your loss and experience. So sorry for your loss once again.