Trading is a addictive and gives a rush of adrenaline, but it is a source of stress as well. One of my friends was trading stocks with leverage, went up over $1 million and he was riding the wave. And few months later he lost it all and since 1 year doesn't touch it anymore. I prefer steady investments with balanced growth, than going through those emotions. Hope you recovered from that and you can push forward with a lesson learned, like I did many times in the past.