I did laugh. In your posts about your suffering it seems like you're in a good space regarding that, and the humor proves it. Doesn't make the questions better.

And no, humans do not use google for some reason. They rather ask stupid questions, especially in the worst moments. And then they tap you on the back three times and say something like "Everything happens for a reason." or "You just have to look at it, you know, from the positive side."

It's admirable that you live your life like you do. That gives some hope.