Words

A word in isolation might not mean much, but a word when applied to a person's feelings and emotions can hold so much, possibly much more than that person could ever articulate; I'm going to try in response to the #weekend-engagement topics for this week.

Motivation - There's many things that motivate me and in the different stages of life some of those things have changed. The early part of my life started well but when my father got sick and passed away when I was eleven life got very difficult for my mother and I. She struggled to make ends meet and to raise me in the way her and my father had originally planned. She was relentless, worked tirelessly and with single focus to provide for us and to give me the opportunities she knew I needed. What motivates me? The efforts and example of my mum throughout my life motivates me every day.

Demotivation - I'm demotivated by the state of society and because I see no improvement on the horizon. There's so many things wrong and I can't help but feel society is moving in the wrong direction, that's it's been turned on its head and is quite messed up. Social media and its negative influence, laziness, the demise of courtesy, manners and effort, entitlement, refusal to focus on real issues like the environment in preference of issues like men and women identifying as the opposite sex or non-gender. I know it's not popular to voice these opinions as it's not 'politically correct', and there's another issue; the fact one group can justify voicing opinions while denigrating another group who also voice their own opposite opinions. What demotivates me? Humanity's willingness to ignore what's important.

Excited - I can't remember life without my guy, I don't want to either because I know it was something less than it is with him in it. I don't think we're anything special when compared against other couples but we also don't compare ourselves to other couples; we're unique as individuals and our relationship is unique to us. We do things together, activities and decisions, success and failure and we love how seamless it is, that we can't define where one ends and the other begins. We love how we have different likes and are passionate about them but also passionate about the likes and interests the other has; it's a respect thing. Speaking of passion...it's unbridled, unfettered and uncompromising between us. I love that. What makes me excited? The last thing I see at night and the first thing I see in the morning; my guy.

Relaxed - There's so many things that relax me from sleeping in, bubble baths, snuggling on the couch with my guy, hikes in the forest, early morning canoeing on a still lake, water like glass, with mist rising lit golden by the early rays of the day, long drives in my guy's truck and antiquing in country towns, tending my garden, reading, drawing...there's a thousand things I could list but the number one thing is my cat. Her cuddles are like medicine for my soul and have a way of making everything feel better no matter how challenging my life may be in that moment. What relaxes me? My little fur baby, my beloved cat.