It's not a need for quality that blocks me, it's the repeated relearning that demotivates me. It happens like this: I have this idea, something that might be received well here and might even formulate into a business idea if it is, then I consider logging in to get some feedback & either I get blocked by that demotivation or I get blocked by a new process or update or culture change that later demotivates me when coming back again.

Hive has changed a lot over the years but learning it's intricacies is one of the fun parts of being in the community.

I wish I still felt the same, but this is where I feel there is too much effort to re-engage. My anxiety seems to stem from the inability to be both in and out. Like if I get involved & invest my time, then I can't come and go as I please without losing some of what I accomplished from my last visit - because whatever I learned has potentially been updated or the tools I used look different, etc. If I had the freedom to stay involved consistently, I might still enjoy the rapid changes in the environment and challenge to adjust and adapt, but it's been a long time since I've felt in a position to do that, and I don't think I ever want to be back in that position either, since that would mean less of a life outside of Hive.

I do have to say I'm extremely impressed by many of the app builders efforts to include educational material in their onboarding components. I just wonder if the dust will ever settle so that it's easy to come & go without having to be immersed in order to feel included. I'm aware that my mind is making the issue bigger than it is. Hence the procrastination.

This is something I probably just have to get over, but I also believe I can't be alone with this problem, and if I solve it for myself alone, then the problem isn't really solved, because I think growth and ease of entry, (revolving door) exit & re-entry are important for the success & growth of the network.