Karmas of a Heartbreaker

“He/she just wants to keep Playing-with-fire”, common accusation of those who were hurt, have their hearts shattered to pieces, and got left behind by someone they considered to be theirs for a lifetime. Lust and Desire were always there when we were still together, but that does not mean that those were the only emotions I have built up for you. Yes I loved you, yes I imagined the future with you, and yes I have to leave you, and I’m sorry. All of you were the ones that got away, I did consider all of you deserving for a lifetime. But please believe us when we say “It’s not you, it’s me.” You weren’t the only ones who blamed me for what I have become, because even before your pain, I already did.

We all know that what goes around comes back around in a way that we won’t expect. I broke your heart, I played pretend. You have moved on, I have new one. You are now happy, I am now chained up. You have some lessons learned, I have bad habits I cannot layover. You get the light, I’m imprisoned in the dark.

Now I’m here in the middle of nowhere feeling nothing, keeping on doing the same mistakes over and over again, knowing nothing more of what love really is and really was. This is the karma. The kind of karma I can never getaway. I may have left your hearts fragmented, but I have left mine frozen. You see the logic and the cycle? Our hearts met, burning when we play-with-fire, Mine kept on blazing, and because yours were fragile, it cracked and shattered, when mine started cooling down, it reached absolute zero, left you pieces, got me frozen. And by sometime, yours will be restored back as whole by someone, although it might have scars but its value won’t change, for yours were diamond. And I? I will be confined in this depressing, emotionless, don’t-know-what-love-is-anymore kind of situation.

All of you were beautiful, precious, and treasures. I was just a some kind of thief, kept on stealing something valuable of you, collecting them in this jar of hearts. All of you were angels, but I got this demon beside me and I’m trapped.

Dear love, I’m sorry.