Finding Myself

When I was living with my parents, many things that I wanted to experience was banned. You know how everyone goes through a dark phase or a finding themselves phase? I wasn’t allowed to go through that. For several years I felt alone, empty, and like maybe I wasn’t taking the path that I wanted to go. When I turned 16 I was talking to a guy that I thought was the whole world and my parents even approved him which made me happy. He ended up fucking me then leaving. Before I met him I was talking to another guy that I ended up blocking because he told me that he feels like who I was dating at the time was going to hurt me. After that guy hurt me I unblocked him and apologized, he said let’s hang out tonight. Later that night I snuck out to see him and he hugged me and looked me in the eyes and said “I wish you could see that you have someone right here in front of you that wants to give you the whole world.” When it comes to love I have always been very skeptical, I agreed to date him. My parents found out and become pissed but they knew they couldn’t stop it so they agreed to let us date. Last year we become engaged and I now live with him. Last week I started watching Wicca and alchemy videos, they have always interested me I just knew that my parents would take everything away if they knew I was studying it. Last night my fiancé hugged me and said as long as you’re safe find yourself. If you want to study becoming a witch, do it! If you want to grow out your body hair do it! No matter what I am here. So the conclusion of this tangent is I have now decided to start taking the steps to finding myself.