My Personal Battle
When I look at myself in the mirror I see a failure, disappointment, ugly, stretch marks, and fat. When people tell me that I am an inspiration, I want to ask them how? How can someone that can’t even look in the mirror and smile be an inspiration? I still don’t understand how, but what I am starting to understand is I’ve spent so much time beating myself up for the mistakes that I have made, that I can’t see the good that I have done. I’ve spent so much time calling myself ugly or fat that I can’t see how beautiful I really am, yeah I may have flaws but everyone does. Lastly I try so hard to get rid of my stretch marks, when they are there to show me what I’ve battled and conquered. I’m not the little girl anymore who would binge eat then starve herself. I’m not the teenager anymore that would cut herself just to see if someone would see my pain and help me. I’m not the teenager anymore that would message any guy willing to give me attention and to call me something that I couldn’t, beautiful.
A Message To Everyone Who Is Battling Themselves
If you have made it this far thank you. I have a point behind this rambling. We spend so much time comparing ourselves to other people, whether it be on a magazine cover, someone in your class, or someone online. Take a step back and realize we aren’t them, just because their life may look perfect doesn’t mean it is. Hell, Robin Williams is a great example, he is a great man that made millions of people laugh daily, rich, and never seemed sad. In real life he was suffering from depression and drinking. After battling it for many years, depression won. I ask this for everyone who is reading, including myself. Remove the mask you wear, because we are hiding our true potential. Yeah, many people are going to call you harsh words Or try to tear you down but don’t listen to them. Remember looks will fade over time but what is in the inside won’t. If you’re struggling with depression, anxiety.. etc please tell someone, because I promise you there is at least one person in this world that cares. I’m one of them. Everyone have a good and safe week, and thank you for being patient with me. If you ever need someone to talk too, I’m here.
