Sigh! A long breath....
Alas! There is no one for me.
Screaming! I am not feeling alive. I washed flood of tears on my face. A painful voice is coming from my heart. It looked,"My lover had my oxygen" Ah! I cried after chest discomfort.
Why I 'm breathing? Am I deserved life?
Why is our land not opened its mouth to engulf me?
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There was a long chat that start from Good morning and end at Good night. We both bunked classes to spend more time with each other at University. We were embedded in each other. One sudden event happened at our 3rd semester. Samia was diagnosed breast cancer. She hide this reality from me for many months. When she stopped talking to me with unbearable face expression, I was doubtful about her health but she smiles and says,"My life! I am okay there is waist pain Only" When she spoke these words to me,"I feel like whole world is fine now"
One day, my mobile phone started ranging,
"Hello Sir! Are you Aslam"
"Yes ma'am" I responded.
"I am Shahnaz Gill from Nishter Hospital, Multan" She continued "There is an emergency Cancer patient named Samia It who want to talk you"
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My teeth started rattling! My mind was dozing! I felt there is no land beneath my feet. I started pain in my heart. I kept my left hand on my heart and replied with slow tone,
"Sister! Is everything right with Patient?" I was doubtful about Samia's Health and worried when She had started to take some medicine by saying,
"Darling! Don't worry these are Paracetamol for headache and after few minutes she pretended to be normal"
Sister responded,
"No Sir! Patient is in critical condition, Please talk to her"
My words become more guarded. Would that I had feathers and could fly to approach her. Suddenly! Tone changed on the receiver,
"Aslam! My lifeline! It looked like I shall not be able to breath more. I loved you both Physically and Spiritually. My breast Cancer had became sever. I wanted to live more for you but Death's Angel is in hurry to take my soul from my body"
I cried,
"Please Samia! Stop these stupid words. There is nothing wrong with you. You will celebrate many happy occasions with me. We shall do our engagement sooner. Please! Don't stop your words. I can't live alone with you"
She talked with her last Words,
"My love, I don't have more time. Ah! I want to see you in Heaven with me. Please keep yourself happy in your whole life and forgive me"
There was a complete Pause! No voice was coming from the receiver. I lost my consciousness. It looked,"I lost my dreams and everything. I want to do suicide but her last words and advises still kept me alive.
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Today, I was weeping and screaming. It is always hard to remember these sad events of my life. All those bad memories are still fresh in my mind. Hence, I asked from you people in my first article here.
"Are you broken like that..."
I 'm sure there will be no one who broke like that. I want to continue my talk If someone want to share his or her story with me, I am ready and can share my sorrows with him or her.